9th December... I Just Realised..

9th December,
Dear Blog,

I Just Realised It is the 9th of December... the day it ended... the day.. we became two..no longer one..its been years but this date will always remind me of her..cuz its my first heartbreak.. my first.. biggest pain.. if i knew about blogging in year 10.. i would've been writing since then but I was introduced to it this year by my brother MyKool Nguyen. Props.. anywayz to start

I blame my ex for making it so easy for me to end it with her ... while she leaves a big scar in my fucking heart... we were going so well in year 8 through out year 9... and before year 10 she had to go fuck it up..was it because I'm not good enough?? was it because I'm not the guy she was looking for? was it because I'm not quite the looker ?? FUCKING ANSWER ME BITCH!.. why did you have to hurt me after we gone through so much? even worst why with my close friend?? WHY?! why hurt me like this without giving me the answer.. why was the last words from your mouth was I'm Sorry? WHY?!?!?

Remember when we always stare at the moon and the stars in the night sky every night when we're together.. we would cuddle,giggle and whisper random words into each others ear while our parents or friends are asleep..why did you have to go and throw it all away without thinking who you are going to hurt? Did you remember.. Year 8 - September 14th,2005.. the day I finaly told you how i felt for you and you would smile and pinch my cheeks saying "silly boy" and then give me a lil peck around the area where u pinched? Do You?? I bet you wont even remember our one year where i bought you a $250 gold bracelet with your name and my name engraved on it which i worked 4 hard days to get and you gave me a $220 hugo wallet that I cleaned nearly every 2 weeks till you told me off for it? But sadd to say..I gave that wallet to my lil cousin when we finaly went seperate ways.. Tho I know you will never read this cause we havent spoken in years nor do I ever want to...

I hope Canada is giving you hell right now... just as a present for this date your name shall remain annonymous to the public apart from those who saw that day happen and my best friend Reilly who was there to guide me through each of my years of pain and sorrow due to your stupidity...I've said enough for now..till the next 9th of December..If you by coincidence ever find my blog..just to let you know. Thanks for the memories and thanks for this pain...thanks for the friendship we had and thanks for the relaitionship we made and moreover.. THANKS FOR SHOWING ME HOW FUCKING STUPID YOU CAN BE AT RUINING EVERY HAPPINESS I HAD THROUGHOUT MY YEARS


From,
Malcolm.