Ever Thought???

Hello Fellow Bloggers & Readers & Other Homo Sapiens..well maybe u martians to.. if you are up there in mars somewhere....eavesdropping.. u stalkerish bum holes...

Ok... Ever thought of telling someone how you deeply feel about them?
Remember About My Last Blog "To BE Or Not To BE" that is the question.. wether to tell her/him or not to... I've been in thinking mode for a while now.. Lemme tell you its not doing me any justice haha as I cant sleep these past few days therefore making up excuses to the reason why I'm tired.Two of my friends are going through the same stage as me at the moment. To my friends here are some questions that you asked me a few days ago which I'm gonna answer in consideration.Furthermore this is also to another friend of mine who is confused over her boy friend as she doesnt know what to do anymore..

1) What Can I Do With These Confusion??

2) BRO! I Read Your Previous Blog.. But I Dont Think I Can Overcome My Confusion.. I Dont Think She Likes Me The Way I Do....furthermore I Do Want TO Get To Know Her More.. Im Goin On A 2 Month Holiday Nxt Week?!?!? HELP!!!

3) I Dont Get Her/Him.. Does He/she Even Feel For Me Anymore??

What Can I Do With These Confusion?
The First Question Tum Tum Ta Dah! Ok... What can you do??? I cant tell you to JUST GET THE MUDAH ASSHOLE OVER IT... cuz thats not how I roll... furthermore noone can get over these confusions especialy when its about your feelings towards someone else.. if i force you to get over it, that will make me a hypocrite because I myself cannot get over this girl I like atm and I wished I could tell her how I feel but... I dont know.. maybe I'm just afraid to make the first move?? anywayz... WHAT YOU CAN DO for the time being is to distract your thoughts as the only way to get your mind off something is to occupy it.. trust me... it helped me for a few hours(better then nothing) I Dance.. so I occupy my head tryna make a routine for the crew... what you can do is think of something you like and Do it regardless if its dance,writing poetry(is good cuz u write ur thoughts 2 words),singing,watching comedy,punch the boxing bag or pillow? or even talk to you close ones about it.. for as long as your mind is occupied..you wont be reminded of the confusion.. thats what I'm doing atm.. im writing you this blog therefore occupying my head for the time being and its also easing down this pain and confusion thats placed in me.

Question 2
Well my friend... like I said give it time... you will build your bond with her sooner or later..eventhough you may be goin on a holiday soon.. let her know that
you will keep in touch with her..but what if she gets taken is why you're worrying cause you know it will bring pain to your heart for you have waited to only see whatever you worked for get washed down the drain...trust me I'm going through the same atm.. i like this girl too and I'm goin Malaysia next friday.. if she is the right one she will wait for your arrival back if she isnt the right one you know the result.. then it will be another Wedding Dress by Tae yang all over again...so what you CAN do not a must.. what you CAN do is still communicate with her.. over the net or by phone(if roaming)if you cant,a letter or a postcard perhaps ;) letting her know you still think of her so that way you might still keep her INTERESTED ? probabaly thats my point of view... or theres the TELL her and GO kinda way which is tell her how you feel before you go... so you will be able 2 give her time to think... if she DOES have a feeling for you then she will take an interest into waiting BUT this only applies if you know her for a long period of time.For you to overcome this confusion you have to MAKE A MOVE! not straight to the point but small baby steps at the time(props 2 my guru apprentice linda for this saying).

Question 3
OK! this one is a different one..this one is 2 a female friend of mine LOL if i said girlfriend people will be like what da fish sticks about it haha but this still applys to those of you who are going through the same as well.
ok... theres nothing you need to get about him..its more of understanding him.. sometimes relationships have its tolls where you suddently fall into a disfunctional 'category' but thats when you need to make it work..I'm preety sure he still feels for you but maybe theres a slight difference?? but that is when you gotta be mature and smart and not take the wrong move and be all UPTIGHT about him being different as he may think you are doubting him which will make his point of view about you change even greatly.. NEXT time if you do see a sign of him slowly changin,do not expose his change but try to fix it ..for example he doesnt talk to you as much anymore all you need to do is talk to him.. if he is tired and doesnt wanna talk dont be all paranoid that he doesnt like you,comfort him and be there just to make him know that you understand his situation and that will in the end COOL him down and make him talk to you.. I've seen it happen as i always do cause I've seen alot of shit happen in my 17 years of hell and if there is another girl involved and you may see him flirting, dont go scolding him tellin him he is an asshole and all because he may get the straight impression that you are just jealous...and as always boys hate the jealous girlfriends... because he thinks that you are thinking of him as the screw up to your relaitonship... if he flirts who cares boys do that all he time..i flirt ima fkin guy for crying out loud.. but if i have a girl.. she is still my ONE and ONLY.. so dont go round blaming him for flirting..UNLESS he starts holding her hand or kissing around or full on hugging in front of you THEN you have the rights to make a move. capiche?? cool off lay low dont be paranoid and dont be upset over small parts dat confuses your relaitonship status.

I'll End It with

Dont Be Confused And Dont Confused Your Heart.. For Confusion Only Leads To Mess Ups. For If You Ever Do Overcome Confusion You Will Gain A Step In Your Pursuit Of Happiness. To All Thanks For Reading And Be Strong No Matter What.. Even The Outcome.Peace

9th December... I Just Realised..

9th December,
Dear Blog,

I Just Realised It is the 9th of December... the day it ended... the day.. we became two..no longer one..its been years but this date will always remind me of her..cuz its my first heartbreak.. my first.. biggest pain.. if i knew about blogging in year 10.. i would've been writing since then but I was introduced to it this year by my brother MyKool Nguyen. Props.. anywayz to start

I blame my ex for making it so easy for me to end it with her ... while she leaves a big scar in my fucking heart... we were going so well in year 8 through out year 9... and before year 10 she had to go fuck it up..was it because I'm not good enough?? was it because I'm not the guy she was looking for? was it because I'm not quite the looker ?? FUCKING ANSWER ME BITCH!.. why did you have to hurt me after we gone through so much? even worst why with my close friend?? WHY?! why hurt me like this without giving me the answer.. why was the last words from your mouth was I'm Sorry? WHY?!?!?

Remember when we always stare at the moon and the stars in the night sky every night when we're together.. we would cuddle,giggle and whisper random words into each others ear while our parents or friends are asleep..why did you have to go and throw it all away without thinking who you are going to hurt? Did you remember.. Year 8 - September 14th,2005.. the day I finaly told you how i felt for you and you would smile and pinch my cheeks saying "silly boy" and then give me a lil peck around the area where u pinched? Do You?? I bet you wont even remember our one year where i bought you a $250 gold bracelet with your name and my name engraved on it which i worked 4 hard days to get and you gave me a $220 hugo wallet that I cleaned nearly every 2 weeks till you told me off for it? But sadd to say..I gave that wallet to my lil cousin when we finaly went seperate ways.. Tho I know you will never read this cause we havent spoken in years nor do I ever want to...

I hope Canada is giving you hell right now... just as a present for this date your name shall remain annonymous to the public apart from those who saw that day happen and my best friend Reilly who was there to guide me through each of my years of pain and sorrow due to your stupidity...I've said enough for now..till the next 9th of December..If you by coincidence ever find my blog..just to let you know. Thanks for the memories and thanks for this pain...thanks for the friendship we had and thanks for the relaitionship we made and moreover.. THANKS FOR SHOWING ME HOW FUCKING STUPID YOU CAN BE AT RUINING EVERY HAPPINESS I HAD THROUGHOUT MY YEARS


From,
Malcolm.

To Be Or Not To Be ?

Hey everyone Mal Mal is back again. I swear I'm turnin into a hardcore blogger hay hahaha xD . Ok today's topic is about being confused with our feelings towards someone and yes.. confused with a person ur gaining an interest in and remember what I say about confusion and our hearts?? Yeh well here goes... today i realised... I'm gainin a slight interest in someone..she is slowly capturing what happens to be a lil piece of interest in me but then again comes the confusion.. cause I do not want be hurt trying to make my mind up and furthermore I do not want to be putting my hopes up that there is something between us.. sure there is chemistry but is it friendly or more of an interest chemistry?? I've been searching for a girl.. for way to long now... 3 years since my ex... and I've finaly started searching for that 'RIGHT' girl.. is she the right one??? For those of you feeling the same way I Do.. here are some ways of dealing with this confusion.(regardless if your a boy or girl it applies to all)

- Do You Think Theres A Chance??
- What Should I Do ? I'm Confused??
- Should I Tell ?? Should I Not??

Do You Think Theres A Chance??
MAYBE... but as we all know.. DO NOT & I mean DO NOT get your HOPES up... cause like I said.. chances are it might be friendly? Furthermore it depends on how long you and this person know each other.. if its for a short amount of time,its definately friendly and if its for a long period of time it all depends on the comfortableness being around each other whether you both share alot in common or share the same feelings.. is there touching involved?? is there flirting?? Some of these MAYBE (not definate) signs that shows a sense of togetherness but we can never be too sure if you get what I mean. So if you ask me is there a chance the only answer i can give u is a MAYBE more like 50 -50 not a YES or a NO as I am not GOD and I cannot predict if you two were destined to be. What I'm here for is to give advices and give a way of overcoming.

What Should You Do Now That You Are Confused?
Theres is one thing you can do... explore deeper into this bond you have with him/her as you will never know if this feeling is legit.Sometimes it all takes time as the feeling may not be there now BUT it will be there in a few days to come..bare in mind feelings come and feelings may go and some may crash while others will still build ok? Lemme relate to this two couple I know. My friend Josh(not real name) has an interest in Ailish(not real name to lol) and he only met her recently.. tho he knows that Ailish may not like him... he still tries his very best to try to get her interest. At first he kinda rushed it which got her obviously freaked out.. so he took a smarter approach to lay off the rush and waited..not wait like full on stop talkin to them.. more like waited and be himself..by talking to her frequently,seeing her on the weekends,talkin or textin on the phone.. yeh those sort of stuff. And later in like 2 or 3 months time he finaly decided to ask her out.. he was the shy type so before he could do it Ailish asked him out hahah(funny right??) but you get where I'm coming from. Even if you are confused .. play the safe game DONT RUSH cuz I learned my lesson quite recently... take it slow get to know each other better and soon you will realise.. she/he will finaly have that feelings for you as you have for her/him and another is be PATIENT!

Should I Tell?? Or Not??

Ok... though letting someone know how you feel maybe a lil smart but you will end up
putting them on the SPOT .. which will kinda freak them out if you and her/him aren't exactly close yet(this was the mistake i made trust me dont follow that route). Like I said above give it time and when you finaly realised that your heart could no longer keep this feelings inside, you let it out.So if you met her..like 2 weeks ago dont go up to her and say I LIKE YOU or I LOVE YOU or I AM CRAZY OVER YOU GIRL!!! cause um.. well you will either get a kick in the balls,a slap to the face,pepper spray in your eyes,walked away from,lost of communications,destruction of bond between you both or maybe a lost of a friend(I've seen one happen..nasty shit yo) so.. keep those feelings to yourself for the time being untill you realized its time to let it out.. not within 2 to 3 or 4 weeks of meeting up.. understand???

So yeh.. there you have it.. dont rush and be patient.LONG TIME AGO I rushed and it didnt turn out well so thats the reason why I would like to share this blog with you all today.Now im slowly gainin an interest in this girl.. I've only started hanging out with her for a while.. hopefully there is something between us and hopefully we will understand each other more when time comes. To Be Or Not To Be? It all comes down to the decision you make.. for having someone special next to you is a help to gain another step in our pursuit of happiness. To All. GOOD LUCK

I Love You ? NOT

Ok this is not like my other blogs where i have questions in it but it does relate to a lil portion in our lives as a pursuit to happiness. What is love ?
A chemistry ? A temporary feeling ? A form of greeting ? These days the word love is overrated.. for example one person may come up to you and say i love you just for the heck of it..like its a form of saying I'm joking...tho I may be a lil hypocritical as I do that every now and then by saying ily to everyone BUT I use the word LOVE only when a particular someone means alot to me for example my best friends,my family and my girlfriend (if i ever have one LOL..yes I'm single) ...anywayz... due to the fact that everyone uses the word i love you to much kinda makes the word meaningless now... only the true ones who have experienced what real love is truly knows how to express the word itself even those who also lost love knows when to use the word as they have once experienced it.

I knew a girl who told me off for saying the word love you as she said "ONLY USE IT WHEN YOU'RE WITH SOMEONE MEANINGFUL! OR THE WORD LOVE WILL DIE" Till then I came to realise that it is true in a way because if we say the word I LOVE YOU to someone we just met, what will the word mean to those who are close to you? or even to this very special someone whom you've been cheerishing all your life?? Will they think you're just fooling around like you are with this NEW friend of yours??? Makes sense doesnt it??

Thats why these days i try to limit my usage of the word I LOVE YOU to a minimum
or within a small group whom im close with because .. I want my close ones to know that I mean it... I want them to know that I really do love them and i really wanna express my feelings for them regardless if they are my famz or close friends. Furthermore pursuing happiness in love is to make sure we UNDERSTAND what LOVE is and persuing even more happiness in love is to make sure we FEEL what LOVE really is...instead of just saying it like it doesnt mean a thing.

To Pursue Another Goal In Happiness, Is To Make Others Happy.. As The Ones You Make Happy Will Try Their Best To Let You Gain A Step In Your Pursuit Of Happiness. For They LOVE You And They Know How Much You Are Meant To Them.

I'll End It With

THE CHOICE IS YOURS WITH HOW YOU WANNA PURSUE YOUR HAPPINESS FOR UNDERSTANDING WHAT LOVE IS WILL HELP YOU GAIN A STEP IN YOUR PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS

The Uninvited Guest

Ok .. I'm Back 4th Of December =]you knw how it is
alright.. heres a lil something going to a friend of mine.
The topic is about an uninvited guest coming into a relaitionship.
Ever had someone coming along into your relaitionship when you thought
evrything was going smoothly or according to plan untill you realised
this annoying human being is interupting with your happy cuddly wuddly time??
Well thats the thing many people have been through that. For example a girl
has a boyfriend... and another girl flirts with him and steals him from her which
caused them to be distant for a while? Then when they get back again
this annoying uninvited f**king guest comes back in yet again??? mind my language.
I apologies hahaha xD but same goes to guys themselves too.

Here Are Some Questions?

Why Whould He/She Do That?
What Makes Them Think They Have The Rights?
When Is The Right Time To Take Action?
What Approach Should I Take?


Ok here we go. question one =D Ta-DAH!!!! Why Would She/He Do That?
Its kinda simple these sort of people dont really care for others but themselves so they want to add whatever means alot to you into their list of making themselves happy instead of thinking of your pain. I know this feeling that you feel.. I once had a girlfriend till i realised my FORMER best friend had a thing going on with her... and this g**damn relaitionship of ours was goin for 1 and a half years.. till it got fucked up in the end cuz she and him got a lil CLOSE....like i said these people dont give a shit about what you want or what you care for all they care is whatever makes them happy and whatever fufills their goals. For these sort of people arent worth your time.. all you need to do is keep your love ones close and let them know you mean something to him/her and they mean so much to you too.

Question 2 What Makes Them Think They Have The Rights? Nothing makes them think they have the rights. They just do whatever they want plus its not like they give a damn whatever happens to us and as i said in the paragraph above they will do whatever to fufill their goals and not others.And when it comes to rights... I personaly dont think they have the rights either.. pretty much noone has the rights to take another person's possesion as it isnt theirs to even start with. People like these should learn to get their own possesion regardless if its unique or worthy of their own. Stop using other people's loved ones to add another tick to the list of who you fucked,or who u gone out with or goals in general as it hurts others in the most painfull way possible.

When Is The Right Time To Take Action ?
The right time is whenever you want it to be. Whenever you think its right to just let your saying take over.Sometimes enough is enough and as i said in the previous blog "Following Ones Heart" dont let your heart feel sad or confused or things might just end up getting worst.Trust me I've been there before and look how I end up with my ex... nothing but pain for a month.. and more. Till today these thoughts still haunt me. I would still be with her by now for if it wasnt for my asshole of a
best friend(former)...and as I said.. dont let this sort of things stretch for too long or you might lose them again and I dont mean DO IT NOW! i mean do it when the time is right and tell your love one that you mean more to him/her and yeh make the promise and bond commit together.Commitment is the key..to a healthy relaitionship and that doesnt come straight away give it time.. but react when the time is right as you are comfortable with =]


What Approach Should I Take or How Should I Do It?
Ok you want my opinion dont make it obvious that your are pointing out the subject like dont make it obvious that your hubby or bubby is being flirted with another girl/guy cause seriously they wouldnt like you knwing that you have been keeping a sharp eye on him/her invading their privacy.. sometimes people need their privacy and sometimes people need their space so dont make it obvious that you are seeing wat he/she is upto. Furthermore dont cling too much to him/her cause you will bring the weird awkward feeling back into the relaitionship that you try so hard to keep away from. And try to avoid as many arguements as possible cause if you argue it opens a gateway or advantage for that enemy of yours to strike.Use your knowledge well and control the outcome

I know your gonna say whoah man you know your stuff. Well its not to say
im smart or super duper cool or ultimately understanding. Its just that i've been through alot for my past 17 years of living and past 5 years of maturing. When you grow in a painful atmosphere and see things you shouldnt be (not ghosts retard) or experience things you shouldnt either(not sex either pervert ^^) you kinda pick it up from young age.Pain... is what makes you stronger as i said... in my 1st blog. The hard road leads us to growing up a stronger person.So I'll end this with me saying remember to think smart and react accordingly and not obviously for only you control your way to gaining a step in your pursuit of happiness. XOXO